Becomeing Okay With Being Me

Wow its been a while since I have updated my blog! So much has happened. I've moved out of my parents house and I am now living on my own In Orem, UT. I have 4 roommates, Katrina (my "best friend" and the whole reason why I moved out here. Holly who moved up here to go to UVU for dance with her best friend. Ashley Holly's best friend who moved up here for the same reason. (both of them are from St. George, UT) Both of them however have changed their minds and changed their major. Ashley moved back home and sold her contract to Lynnie, A cute girl fresh out of high school who has a lot of growing up to do but its kinda nice to have someone innocent to live with cause my other roommates are for sure not innocent. And then that leaves Stephanie. She and I but heads a lot and its not so hard for us to get annoyed with each other... which honestly happens all of the time. and I think it may make me want to move back home to my parents house. or just be done with roommates all together.
I am Chief now at UVU, for the cafeteria upstairs called the valley view room. If your ever at UVU and are wanting some lunch go ahead and stop by and get some food the head chief is amazing and I have learned everything that I know from him. And I just Love to cook now. It makes my day In fact I am going home to cook for my....roommates...thats right they are coming to my parents house to do laundry and then we are going to eat homemade chicken noodle soap! Im really excited to makes it. I just love to cook.

And now for the reason why this is called "BECOMING OKAY WITH BEING ME" Although moving out has been "good" for me it has also been extremely hard for me. I have been going through a ton of trials where I have no control over my life. My roommates are good people and so is my best friend Matt (who by the way lives at my place pretty much which honestly i am positive that I am no longer the reason why he comes over anymore but thats ok. Like I said they are all good people however in order for me to fit in with them most of the time I have to not be me. and it is crazy because I am so not happy with that!!!! Like i can be happy for about 24 hours and then the next night im crazy sick and unhappy and i just want to scream. However then last night happened. last night i had a friend come and give me a blessing and i came to the point where I was done and I was tired of not being me. So as of now I am becomibg ok with being me and not giving a crap that i don't fit in in my own apartment. I'll live i have the friends that I need to get through my trials i just need to use them and not the ones that I think i do because i live with them. anyway ill keep you updated. I love you ll and I'll hopefully not take four months to do so.

Love Charly Paige