Back to School

Ok so back to school after only a week and a half off going back to school would be so hard...for everyone except those of us that are super excited for their classes. This week has been so crazy!

On Monday we had our first LDSSA council meeting and let me tell you it was so amazing! Ever since retreat I have felt so close to these people! I love them! (P.S. a post on retreat is still on its way im waiting for pictures to go up that I can use:) I can not even tell you the way a feel around these people the best was to describe it is that i know that each and everyone of us are there for a reason and that the lord is having us work together and be friends for a reason. It is truly amazing! I think on thing that plays a major role in it is knowing that there are a few people that are on council that honestly i couldn't say that I would be friends with with out it. I am so glad that we are friends though because some of them are my best friends now.

Anyway back to the meeting as i said it was amazing..we tend to get off track but im hoping that that will soon change. I was just loving the meeting so much that I honestly forgot to watch the time so that i wouldn't be late to work (meeting starts at 7 and i have to be at work by 8) So Sitting there taking notes and then as if on cue Dani turns to me and whispers "char char dont you have work?" right as i get a txt from my boss. yeah i was ten min late to work no big... only very big deal because I waled in and we had a lot to do....which normally not a big deal but in the case it was a HUGE! deal. why you ask? Well i work with ALL men and have ever since i started working there. I havent minded to much until this monday. The men i work with...have stoped caring that they work with a woman and its a hard environment to work to work in because of it. I pretty much went from super amazing spirit to spirit gone its like it left as soon as i walked back into the kitchen. i still love my job only I dont I hate being there like i dread going into work. I never dread going into this job ive loved it since the day I started....My boss stared noticing this...its a good thin that i started looking for another job.

however the job hunt is for more then one reason. The main reason is that I have to get into my major I have fallen in love with my music again which can i just say is so hard to explain to people that say they are my "friends" because they dont believe me but its all because i moved that I lost it and now its back I can't wait to get into my music major! and that means finding a new job because right now i work right over the times that they hold their classes. so lets all pray that I have a new job soon ok?

Tuesday was a normal day Except for the whole job hunt thing which is not so fun but i have to apply for at least 3 jobs a day and yeah.

Wednesday day...oh Wednesday. I loved Wednesday it was such an amazing day! I went to work and THERE WERE PEOPLE!!! I haven't seen people in so long i loved it! I was so happy about it. i worked 7 hours the longest shift that i have worked in about four months which is nice because that means money which makes me so happy! my only problem with it is because I dropped my 3pm class i can now work til im not needed....which i know is my own fault but i wish i had a set time to get off ya know?

After getting off work I went and did institute stuff (shocker) the had my first class which is Group Guitar! It is so much fun! I need an instrument to perform with so its about time that I learn how to really play this one as apposed to pretending like i do haha. I love the class already. A guy walked in with my friends Guitar and because of it we are practicing together it should be fun! Then an institute class YAY!!! I love it! I am excited to be back in the game last year all i took was choir so this will be awesome!

Thursday I love because i only work til 1130 and dont have class til 12 so i get to go chill at the institute and the go to more music! Its fundamentals of music and its the last class i need before going full swing in my major and I cant wait!

Friday i have Zumba and even though we didn't work out this week i came home so drained and ready for bed (it was only 7) I love Zumba but It will kick my butt because its at the end of the week!

My cousin got baptized on Saturday so we stayed the night up at my grandparents. My grandma informed me that i would no longer be getting birthday money (my birthday is on Tuesday so this wasn't out of no where that she brought it up) i am the oldest single grandchild so they had to cap it somewhere and so they choses 20 for the cap and that is totally ok with me. But then told me that they were giving me money for school!!!! this was such a blessing! It wasn't a lot but it was enough to get what i needed to still get i love them! and I am so excited for this amazing semester to get going :)

and on to the next crazy week...

The love of my life

No I'm not dating anyone but i do have a new love of my life it is known as LDSSA. We had a retreat this last week to kind of kick things off and im not going to lie to you i have never been so in love with a call in my life! I dont know what it is about it but sharing the gospel and making all those around me happy is worth it.

these girls are total life saves when I have felt like no one else what there ( which pretty sums up my summer) they were I cant tell you how many times i heard "what Charmaine why didnt you tell me!!!" for any kind of news that I had.

I know that the Lord placed me here right now for a reason and I can't totally tell you why but I know that I have been.

I have not had the easiest summers but because thats kind if a normal thing i decided to just ignore it. let me clarify one thing before i move on this summer wasn't hard for me because of things I was going through but things others were going through. i didn't know how to help and in some way it made me feel a lone. I couldn't talk to them about it for fear of it only making it worse for them but also i wanted them to know that I loved them. it was not easy. Because of this and a few other things I found myself in s rut that i couldn't get out of. Then retreat came along and we were asked to take some time to just be with ourself and the lord. i went off and cried for about and hour and a half and came back so happy. i am so thankful for the lord and this calling. I cam back with a testimony of where i am who i am and that the Lord has lead me to the right calling and that I have been prepared to do a greater work. A work that am so excited for! "Its more then i deserve and It takes my Breath away"

Cheri Call has a song that explains exactly how i feel right now i couldn't find it on you tube for it...so i bought the song and made one really fast. Its called leave it like it is. Enjoy!

procrastination clock

In My English class we have this clock at a two second glance you might wonder if it was working or not. However if you were to just stare at the clock (this class can be that boring at times) the second hand is just waiting for five seconds. Every five seconds the second hand moves rapidly to the next number then stops for four seconds then races to catch up its quite entertaining to be honest but it got me thinking. I am on the institute council at the orem institute of religion and have learned how procrastination effects those around us. I have had to pick up others "dropped balls" and they have left me racing to catch up so i like to think that this procrastination clock has taught me a lesson...but we will see

new blog

hey guys Ive got a new blog check it out...ill still be using this one just follow both k
http://notjustaheartthrob.blogspot.com/
love ya
charmaie

dating advice

I have been given a ton of dating advice lately and for the most part its become very annoying mostly because I dont really care to date right now. why you ask? well there are a couple of reasons. too many

Recently Ive cried a lot over stupid boys that turned out to be not what they looked to be in the beginning. I realize that this is normally how it is I've just gotten a lot of it within the past couple of months.

However this isn't the main reason why dating is not on my list of top 10 things to do right now heck i wouldn't even put it on top twenty.

honestly its because of all the False advice. I've been told a number of things when it comes to dating. Some of my favorites were "when your starting a relationship too much communication is possible and its a really bad thing" "well you could flirt a lot more" (i'm not a "natural" flirt in fact flirting goes way out of my comfort zone) "Put make up on more often boys will look at you then" (i almost never wear make up anymore) "go work out more often" (haha have you seen my schedule I am luck to get the 3 hours a week that i do get)

Now before you go on thinking that i was asking for this advice let me tell you that I never asked for it!

However I have always been one to humor people even if it is for no good reason other then to just make then happy. Even though it was NEVER making me happy.

So this week here is what happened. At the risk of getting sick again I realized how unhappy I truly was. When i stopped to think about i came up wit this resolution

Look Im me and I'm not changing. if I'm to much for a guy to handle to bad! One day some guy will come along and fall for me because I'm me if he came and fell for someone im not i would feel stuck and I'm so much more fun to be around if im myself.

I now also have some rules. and have had them long before I got any of this advice. for example make up only goes on for me because i want to look pretty not because I want so random guy that I know nothing about to fall for me.

I work out because I want to stay healthy most of my life i have been sick but now i feel amazing who cares if im not as thin as my sisters I'm not doing anything wrong by it.

And most importantly if I'm not happy im not me.

i hope everyone remembers that. Its more important for you to be you then for you to be someone else. wouldn't you love the person you fall in love with to really be that person? then why not give them the same curiosity?!?!

Love you all!

Charly Paige

the power of the spirit

I gave a talk in church today. When brother Jones announced my topic i didn't stick to the topic as well as i had though and my thoughts quickly went to how can i revise this to work for what they wanted? I slowly stood and gave the talk that i had prepared. The entire time i was praying and begging the father to let the spirit guide me through my talk and let it touch someone. Then i had the thought remember how strong the spirit was as you wrote it? It will still be there. none the less i still stood there begging the father to help me. As i sat down I felt that i had failed i had been asked to talk on one topic and i had only touched on it. then with tears stuck in his eyes brother Jones said that was just what was needed. and so did many others. granted there were the few who would rather put me down then say nothing at all but for the first time i felt want it was truly like to be the Lord servant and be used to help those around me in ways that i can't imagine. I am so thank for this experience and for my father who listen to his little girl plead with him even though he had already answered her prayer and comforted her in the way she needed even though he could have just put peace in her he gave her so much more. I Love this church!

Wow can I REALLY concisder myself a chef?!?! that owns her own catering business?

So a couple of weeks ago my best friend threw a private prom for our friend that didn't get asked to her senior prom. so Nettie wsa a sweet heart and planned one for her, and i was blessed to be able to cook a meal for everyone...well word got around and now I'm doing the food for my friends wedding and i have another person talking to me about it. how did this happen? Yeah I started cooking as a chef in august but that was just in august. Ths is kinda cool but scary at the same tme. ill talk pics and let you know how it turns out!